the title of today's run is: when?

when will i stop the self-doubting that happens on some runs?

when will i stop telling myself that i'm not good enough, fast enough, look good enough, lost enough weight?

when will i stop suggesting that i can't possibly run this 13.1 miles on sunday when clearly i can?

when will that little voice stop saying "i can't?"

it doesn't happen as much anymore, but why do i still hear it at all? when will i finally feel like i've proved to myself that i can do this?

4 miles is a long way to beat yourself up...i'm tired of it.